I knew you were there,
right beside me,
very near,
even inside me.
And then,
Bam!
You started your favourite,
took me on a roller coaster—
to swirl, to boom,
to swing, to bang,
and maybe a bounce or two...

I had built a calm there,
not liking it but wanting it,
trying to change it, yet keep it
It paid my bills
and my dreams,
and some luxury
that I induced in
It started a narrative
of a future,
which was there
or might be...

As I was getting ready
for a new journey,
learning to drive through
the new ups and lows,
I knew you were there,
right beside me,
very near,
it was you who pushed me.

Into a hole
of negligence,
of doubts,
of cries,
of howls,
of renounce!
Still, I had you
inside me!
I stood,
I fought,
I learned,
I failed,
I tried,
I strived,
I prayed,
I did,
and I did
and I did.

I snatched that piece,
still hot and raw,
to create a new flaw,
to build what could not be mine
in any other way
or could jump off the cliff
in my sway

They who are said to be mine,
with a stamp of a bearing
of a name,
I didn’t find anyone,
when you were there,
right beside me,
very near.
You unleashed the demon,
all bare,
and snoring,
with wide teeth
to tear me apart
But I held close
as you were
even inside me.
I fought,
I built,
I broke,
I left.

Those tiny hands
were there too,
right beside me,
very near,
that held me,
gave me warmth,
gave me love,
gave me power,
gave me strength.

And I continued
to give meaning,
with hopes of colors
and sparkles
and booms,
less of bams,
as still you are there,
right beside me,
very near,
even inside me...